Hi, I'm Here4You / Here4YouMeow (for my forums account might say BESTOFCHICAG0 but this was a VERY old ign). I played Loka very actively through mid 2023 to around 2024, I was muted during February of 2024 (Can't remember the exact date). I believe my mute to be for comments that I made against two players; Dwggo, and Coldarc. It's been nearly 2 years since my mute and in that time I've reflected on my actions and matured incredibly. In this Appeal I'll go over what happened with both of those players on that day and the actions I've taken since.
For a long time I had a beef / conflict with the player Coldarc for very little / petty reasons, which ultimately led to the comments I said in chat that day.
During this time that I had conflict with Coldarc we'd constantly bicker and argue in chat and in voice calls, this is something that for a year and a half or so I've felt lots of regret towards. During February of last year we were able to properly communicate, I have apologized multiple times and we are now friendly towards each other with no hard feelings and a lot of mutual friends. we have still minimally interacted mostly due to me being away from Loka for the most part recently for unrelated reasons, and us not really sharing other communities to a meaningful extent. I'm sure that what I said was more of the usual I would say during this time (likely aimed at her gender identity in an attempt to get under her skin despite me being transgender and closeted at the time).
When it comes to Dwggo, I can remember exactly what I said in chat, which I can't with Coldarc. I made a very bad joke towards her after she said "I fell off a bunk bed once" I implied that this made her Transgender. (For context: I'm not aware if Dwggo is a part of the LGBTQ or not, all I know is that she claims to be born female, making what I said make zero sense) I really regret saying this as I was essentially just letting a random intrusive thought out into chat without thinking, I just remember that I was really pushing things in chat that night not caring if I get muted which I obviously shouldn't have as this only proves my harmful behavior I exhibited at the time.
I never had any kind of real conflict with Dwggo, and I don't think she had any with me either. Both before and after this we have been friends and played together both on and off Loka including playing together on a SMP server sometime in the last year. When I dmmed her about the situation she said she didn't remember much about it and vouches that I haven't been harmful towards her or anyone else to her knowledge.
I used to hang out with a very bad crowd of people who I've since either fully cut off or barely talk to anymore. Before I had a big wake up call and changed my ways in mid-late 2024. I've said some awful things, some worse then what I said on Loka. That being said, I don't think that it excuses me as it was all my choic which is why I've been trying to show change with my actions over these last 2 Years. I'll be turning 17 in 2 days and my old behavior was completely unacceptable even for my age back then, let alone now.
Thanks for taking your time to read this appeal! I promise to be on the best behavior possible if this is accepted, and please feel free to leave thoughts in the comments.
For a long time I had a beef / conflict with the player Coldarc for very little / petty reasons, which ultimately led to the comments I said in chat that day.
During this time that I had conflict with Coldarc we'd constantly bicker and argue in chat and in voice calls, this is something that for a year and a half or so I've felt lots of regret towards. During February of last year we were able to properly communicate, I have apologized multiple times and we are now friendly towards each other with no hard feelings and a lot of mutual friends. we have still minimally interacted mostly due to me being away from Loka for the most part recently for unrelated reasons, and us not really sharing other communities to a meaningful extent. I'm sure that what I said was more of the usual I would say during this time (likely aimed at her gender identity in an attempt to get under her skin despite me being transgender and closeted at the time).
When it comes to Dwggo, I can remember exactly what I said in chat, which I can't with Coldarc. I made a very bad joke towards her after she said "I fell off a bunk bed once" I implied that this made her Transgender. (For context: I'm not aware if Dwggo is a part of the LGBTQ or not, all I know is that she claims to be born female, making what I said make zero sense) I really regret saying this as I was essentially just letting a random intrusive thought out into chat without thinking, I just remember that I was really pushing things in chat that night not caring if I get muted which I obviously shouldn't have as this only proves my harmful behavior I exhibited at the time.
I never had any kind of real conflict with Dwggo, and I don't think she had any with me either. Both before and after this we have been friends and played together both on and off Loka including playing together on a SMP server sometime in the last year. When I dmmed her about the situation she said she didn't remember much about it and vouches that I haven't been harmful towards her or anyone else to her knowledge.
I used to hang out with a very bad crowd of people who I've since either fully cut off or barely talk to anymore. Before I had a big wake up call and changed my ways in mid-late 2024. I've said some awful things, some worse then what I said on Loka. That being said, I don't think that it excuses me as it was all my choic which is why I've been trying to show change with my actions over these last 2 Years. I'll be turning 17 in 2 days and my old behavior was completely unacceptable even for my age back then, let alone now.
Thanks for taking your time to read this appeal! I promise to be on the best behavior possible if this is accepted, and please feel free to leave thoughts in the comments.
