LobsterLarry
Well-Known Member
Hello I know the responses I will probably get on this and quite frankly I don't play enough anymore but when I do play I would like to play with my friends again in Vinovia.
I was banned for Harassment and Racism 7 Months ago. I did these things, but the target of who my words were against did not play Loka (Nor Minecraft for that matter), and the only reason it was brought to light was because Rolyy was target banning me for reporting on something wrong that he and his friends were doing month by month by nuking discords, and I had tried to put a stop to that. Regardless of how or why I was reported, I know it does not matter. I did these things to someone, and I said various nasty things in that discord. It was a private discord, sure, but in my immaturity I understand that what I was saying was truly wrong. I know I say these things a lot in private, and for my inexcusable vocabulary slippage into the more public, it was and is a severe lapse of judgement. I used to say these things a lot more in the past, and since high school I have brushed myself alongside the line of toxicity and racism. I have been trying for a long time to better myself and stay clear of these toxic behaviors, mostly to no avail. For what I said in that discord is absolutely egregiously wrong, I apologize. Both to those on the forums who have seen it, and for the players who have known me for many years on here who now view me in a different light. I cannot take back what I said, but if I could, I would. I know now that there are other ways of handling with online toxicity and irl threats than to sling slurs towards people and to say diabolical things back towards them.
I know I have lost the communities' support long ago and I probably will never have it again, but I know that if given the chance to come back to the server, I will show the LobsterLarry that was a Sentry long ago and my attitude will be changed for the better. I will continue to work on staying away from toxic environments and try to come back to this community as a beacon of what real change is. I know this is not a long post, and I understand how appeals work, so all I can do is write what I believe to be my honest response to my ban, I was banned many months (I'm not sure if close to a year or not) ago and I understand many have held bans for longer. I've never had any toxicity bans in my past, and the only permamute I have received was before my position as Sentry. I hope that with my history being not as lengthy, that I could perhaps be afforded an unban.
I was banned for Harassment and Racism 7 Months ago. I did these things, but the target of who my words were against did not play Loka (Nor Minecraft for that matter), and the only reason it was brought to light was because Rolyy was target banning me for reporting on something wrong that he and his friends were doing month by month by nuking discords, and I had tried to put a stop to that. Regardless of how or why I was reported, I know it does not matter. I did these things to someone, and I said various nasty things in that discord. It was a private discord, sure, but in my immaturity I understand that what I was saying was truly wrong. I know I say these things a lot in private, and for my inexcusable vocabulary slippage into the more public, it was and is a severe lapse of judgement. I used to say these things a lot more in the past, and since high school I have brushed myself alongside the line of toxicity and racism. I have been trying for a long time to better myself and stay clear of these toxic behaviors, mostly to no avail. For what I said in that discord is absolutely egregiously wrong, I apologize. Both to those on the forums who have seen it, and for the players who have known me for many years on here who now view me in a different light. I cannot take back what I said, but if I could, I would. I know now that there are other ways of handling with online toxicity and irl threats than to sling slurs towards people and to say diabolical things back towards them.
I know I have lost the communities' support long ago and I probably will never have it again, but I know that if given the chance to come back to the server, I will show the LobsterLarry that was a Sentry long ago and my attitude will be changed for the better. I will continue to work on staying away from toxic environments and try to come back to this community as a beacon of what real change is. I know this is not a long post, and I understand how appeals work, so all I can do is write what I believe to be my honest response to my ban, I was banned many months (I'm not sure if close to a year or not) ago and I understand many have held bans for longer. I've never had any toxicity bans in my past, and the only permamute I have received was before my position as Sentry. I hope that with my history being not as lengthy, that I could perhaps be afforded an unban.
