Melon
Active Member
Hello fellow Lokans, soy MalawerMelon. I come to you today to apologize for my former actions on your server, the things that I said and did were clearly unacceptable, and I see this now. At the time I was just messing around and trolling the staff members that rightfully corrected me. I now see how my accumulated actions showed a pattern of disrespect and ignorance, and that I really was in the wrong. At the time it felt as though I was just making jokes with friends and having fun, but I completely disregarded other people and their feelings. Following my ban, my toxicity did not cease, and I began to look for a new place to play minecraft, and as Loka is really the only good server in existence, the search did not go well. It was at this point that I began looking elsewhere, and I discovered the world of Crystal pvp. As many people know, the crystal community is known for its extreme toxicity. Many prominent crystal players are notorious for their toxicity, and it was here that I spent most if not all of my time on Minecraft. After continued exposure to this community and its extreme toxicity, I grew tired of it and realized how annoying it really was. It was after this that I truly understood how others perceived my actions when I played Loka. In my mind I was just messing around and having fun, but to others I was offensive, rude, and just annoying to deal with. Me thinking it was funny to troll the staff was really just wasting other people's time, time that could have been spent doing better more important things. After all of this, I took an extended break from Minecraft as a whole. I began to play other games and got really into Sea of Thieves, a pirate game with a very wholesome community. I believe it was here that my online presence began to have an overall positive affect rather than a negative one. This game reflected back onto me and I think made me a better person as a whole. I began to help other people, I was kinder, and my involvement in the game increased. The occasional trash talk session still happened, as it does in game when played competitively, but I never let things get out of hand and things would end on a good note, which I believe generally made the game more enjoyable. A few months later I began to play the game less often, but I do believe my experiences while playing this greatly contributed to the reformation of my person. In conclusion, my time while being banned has taught me a lot about my person, allowing me to change my character to more accurately reflect positive values, and remove the negative ones. I would love to once again become part of the Lokan community. The players and staff have always been kind and helpful, and I would love to have the opportunity to do the same and redeem myself, putting myself past my prior actions on the server. Thank you - Melon
