Melon
Active Member
Good day fellow Lokans. I have come to you today to once again apologize for my actions, and to appeal my ban on your server. As of today I have been banned on Loka for approximately 1 year and 2 months, and I believe that during this time I have truly experienced a positive change of character. I have gone from an unhinged racist who would not give a second thought to conveying hateful beliefs through a multitude of actions and offensive comments, to now no longer partaking in these actions or finding humor in this sort of behavior. I disregarded the feelings of others, as well as the rules of the server, and did not take into account how what I said could effect others, or simply put, knowing this but still not being deterred from saying and doing the things I did. For this I would like to apologize, especially to those who I may have directly offended with my words or actions.
In previous appeals, I had given an overview of my experiences after I had been banned on Loka, as well as the situation surrounding my ban, which I will reiterate here for those who may not recall exactly what transpired. Leading up to my ban I had accumulated many punishments due to my racist and hateful actions on the server. These actions included linking racist sword names in public chat (after which I was permanently muted), hate speech, as well as using offensive skins and capes and then trolling the staff members that attempted to address the issue. My final punishment on the server, which led to my permanent ban, was a month long ban for using a klansman skin. After I had been banned for this I decided to try and contest it by lying and saying that I had not been using a klansman skin, but instead a skin representing a crusader. My argument was based on the resemblance between the klansman skin and what a crusader would wear. I had not actually been using a crusader skin and had intentionally set my skin to a member of the KKK, but at the time I thought that it would be funny to lie and convince everyone that this was not the case. I went around telling everyone that I had been falsely banned, and that it actually was a crusader skin in order to generate support for my appeal, and by doing so trick staff into unbanning me. When staff uncovered what I had been doing in lying to them, as well as other racist actions I had committed outside of the server, they rightly decided that it was best to change my current one month ban into a permanent one. I would also like to say, just to add context and not as an excuse, that one of the main reasons for me making the appeal in which I lied (other than my terrible and warped sense of humor) was that I had at the time been experiencing an issue that caused everything server sided to freeze, for around a second, whenever I walked through a chunk border. This essentially removed my ability to participate in any form of pvp on the server, and in turn was one less thing to deter me from lying about my skin, as I had not been playing the server much anymore. I had truly enjoyed playing on the server, and would love to have the opportunity to prove that I have changed and make up for my previous actions if I am unbanned.
After my ban on the server, my behavior did not change, and arguably became worse than it was previously. Searching for a server and new community after my ban, I eventually came across the incredibly welcoming, kind, and wholesome Crystal PvP community (sarcasm). Many crystal players (not all) are notoriously toxic and racist, and it was here that I found myself for the next 2-3 months. Through my time playing crystal on different servers, having to deal with and partaking in the constant shit talking and racism, I gradually became more and more aware of how I was coming off to others, as I was able to experience it from others myself. As I drifted away from Minecraft, I started to play a game called Sea of Thieves. The playerbase of this community was potentially one of the most wholesome and kindest communities that I had ever been a part of, and I believe playing here had an overall positive effect on my character. I no lifed this game for almost my entire summer break, and through playing this I gained a new perspective on how a game, while still played competitively, did not have to centered or situated in a toxic environment. While it may sound dumb that this was a new experience for me, it really was as I had grown up playing COD, and at the time was playing a fair amount of League of Legends. I wasn't much of a casual gamer, and the communities of those games aren't exactly renown for being very kind xD.
I'm not saying that through this process of reformation I extinguished all of my toxicity (I do still get into some arguments online), but what I am saying is that I no longer hold any of the racist or hateful values I once did, and that I try to be kind to others and am no longer the one to initiate an argument or start talking trash to someone for no reason. I really do believe that I have undergone a significant change in character, and am ready to once again become part of the community.
Thank you,
Melon
In previous appeals, I had given an overview of my experiences after I had been banned on Loka, as well as the situation surrounding my ban, which I will reiterate here for those who may not recall exactly what transpired. Leading up to my ban I had accumulated many punishments due to my racist and hateful actions on the server. These actions included linking racist sword names in public chat (after which I was permanently muted), hate speech, as well as using offensive skins and capes and then trolling the staff members that attempted to address the issue. My final punishment on the server, which led to my permanent ban, was a month long ban for using a klansman skin. After I had been banned for this I decided to try and contest it by lying and saying that I had not been using a klansman skin, but instead a skin representing a crusader. My argument was based on the resemblance between the klansman skin and what a crusader would wear. I had not actually been using a crusader skin and had intentionally set my skin to a member of the KKK, but at the time I thought that it would be funny to lie and convince everyone that this was not the case. I went around telling everyone that I had been falsely banned, and that it actually was a crusader skin in order to generate support for my appeal, and by doing so trick staff into unbanning me. When staff uncovered what I had been doing in lying to them, as well as other racist actions I had committed outside of the server, they rightly decided that it was best to change my current one month ban into a permanent one. I would also like to say, just to add context and not as an excuse, that one of the main reasons for me making the appeal in which I lied (other than my terrible and warped sense of humor) was that I had at the time been experiencing an issue that caused everything server sided to freeze, for around a second, whenever I walked through a chunk border. This essentially removed my ability to participate in any form of pvp on the server, and in turn was one less thing to deter me from lying about my skin, as I had not been playing the server much anymore. I had truly enjoyed playing on the server, and would love to have the opportunity to prove that I have changed and make up for my previous actions if I am unbanned.
After my ban on the server, my behavior did not change, and arguably became worse than it was previously. Searching for a server and new community after my ban, I eventually came across the incredibly welcoming, kind, and wholesome Crystal PvP community (sarcasm). Many crystal players (not all) are notoriously toxic and racist, and it was here that I found myself for the next 2-3 months. Through my time playing crystal on different servers, having to deal with and partaking in the constant shit talking and racism, I gradually became more and more aware of how I was coming off to others, as I was able to experience it from others myself. As I drifted away from Minecraft, I started to play a game called Sea of Thieves. The playerbase of this community was potentially one of the most wholesome and kindest communities that I had ever been a part of, and I believe playing here had an overall positive effect on my character. I no lifed this game for almost my entire summer break, and through playing this I gained a new perspective on how a game, while still played competitively, did not have to centered or situated in a toxic environment. While it may sound dumb that this was a new experience for me, it really was as I had grown up playing COD, and at the time was playing a fair amount of League of Legends. I wasn't much of a casual gamer, and the communities of those games aren't exactly renown for being very kind xD.
I'm not saying that through this process of reformation I extinguished all of my toxicity (I do still get into some arguments online), but what I am saying is that I no longer hold any of the racist or hateful values I once did, and that I try to be kind to others and am no longer the one to initiate an argument or start talking trash to someone for no reason. I really do believe that I have undergone a significant change in character, and am ready to once again become part of the community.
Thank you,
Melon
