Capril
Member
Dear Loka,
I hope this message finds you well. I am writing to formally appeal my mute, which has now lasted for around seven months. First and foremost, I want to apologise for my past behavior and acknowledge that my actions were inappropriate and unacceptable. I fully take responsibility for the words I have said and the impact they have had on the Loka community.
( I believe I was muted for 3 main reasons which I will address in this appeal)
One of the incidents that led to my mute was when I linked a lore in public chat titled "Kxyzv is fat" While I intended it as a joke while in VC with him, I now understand that making fun of someone’s appearance or using demeaning language even as a joke, is not okay. No matter my intentions, it was the wrong thing to say. Since then, Kxyzv and I have made up and are now teammates, but that does not excuse my actions. I deeply regret any harm I may have caused him.
Another incident involved me making a hurtful comment towards Fxcile by referencing a painful moment in his life. During an intense argument, I said, "bro didn’t you cry cuz sm1 made fun of your grandma?" This was about an earlier conflict between Fxcile and Click1x a few months ago (his teammate at the time), where personal attacks had really affected him. I wrote this intending to make fun of Fxcile but I did not realize how bitter and insensitive that comment was surrounding the context of the situation. Grief is deeply personal, and using it against someone, even in an argument, is completely wrong. I cannot imagine the pain this may have caused Fxcile and I am truly very very sorry for this.
Reflecting on that period, I recognize that I was in a highly negative state of mind, particularly during conflicts with Monkeynick and his team. I let my emotions get the best of me, and instead of handling things maturely, I responded with toxicity, lashing out in ways that were both harmful and not necessary at all. Looking back, I fully acknowledge that my words contributed to a negative & hostile environment, and for that, I am truly sorry. I realize that I deserved my mute 100%
Over the past seven months, I have taken important steps to reflect on my behavior and focus on personal growth. One of the steps was taking a 2-3 month break from Loka right after my mute to step back and work on myself. During this time, I made an effort to distance myself from toxicity, rethink how I communicate with others, and build a better presence both in and outside of Loka. I have worked to repair relationships, including with Kxyzv and others, and I am determined to ensure I do not repeat my past mistakes.
I am not appealing this mute because I feel entitled, but because I am asking for a second chance to be a positive part of the community again. If I am unmuted, I will make sure my future self is kind, respectful, and mature. I have learned from my mistakes and am committed to being a better member of this community. To anyone who was directly affected by my words, especially Kxyzv, Fxcile, and Monkeynick’s teammates, I offer my most genuine apologies. I do not expect forgiveness, but I want you to know that I deeply am remorseful about any pain I have caused. I hope that my actions in the future will show my commitment to change.
Thank you for taking the time to read my appeal and consider my request. No matter the decision, I appreciate the chance to take responsibility for my past and express my commitment to doing better.
- Capril
I hope this message finds you well. I am writing to formally appeal my mute, which has now lasted for around seven months. First and foremost, I want to apologise for my past behavior and acknowledge that my actions were inappropriate and unacceptable. I fully take responsibility for the words I have said and the impact they have had on the Loka community.
( I believe I was muted for 3 main reasons which I will address in this appeal)
One of the incidents that led to my mute was when I linked a lore in public chat titled "Kxyzv is fat" While I intended it as a joke while in VC with him, I now understand that making fun of someone’s appearance or using demeaning language even as a joke, is not okay. No matter my intentions, it was the wrong thing to say. Since then, Kxyzv and I have made up and are now teammates, but that does not excuse my actions. I deeply regret any harm I may have caused him.
Another incident involved me making a hurtful comment towards Fxcile by referencing a painful moment in his life. During an intense argument, I said, "bro didn’t you cry cuz sm1 made fun of your grandma?" This was about an earlier conflict between Fxcile and Click1x a few months ago (his teammate at the time), where personal attacks had really affected him. I wrote this intending to make fun of Fxcile but I did not realize how bitter and insensitive that comment was surrounding the context of the situation. Grief is deeply personal, and using it against someone, even in an argument, is completely wrong. I cannot imagine the pain this may have caused Fxcile and I am truly very very sorry for this.
Reflecting on that period, I recognize that I was in a highly negative state of mind, particularly during conflicts with Monkeynick and his team. I let my emotions get the best of me, and instead of handling things maturely, I responded with toxicity, lashing out in ways that were both harmful and not necessary at all. Looking back, I fully acknowledge that my words contributed to a negative & hostile environment, and for that, I am truly sorry. I realize that I deserved my mute 100%
Over the past seven months, I have taken important steps to reflect on my behavior and focus on personal growth. One of the steps was taking a 2-3 month break from Loka right after my mute to step back and work on myself. During this time, I made an effort to distance myself from toxicity, rethink how I communicate with others, and build a better presence both in and outside of Loka. I have worked to repair relationships, including with Kxyzv and others, and I am determined to ensure I do not repeat my past mistakes.
I am not appealing this mute because I feel entitled, but because I am asking for a second chance to be a positive part of the community again. If I am unmuted, I will make sure my future self is kind, respectful, and mature. I have learned from my mistakes and am committed to being a better member of this community. To anyone who was directly affected by my words, especially Kxyzv, Fxcile, and Monkeynick’s teammates, I offer my most genuine apologies. I do not expect forgiveness, but I want you to know that I deeply am remorseful about any pain I have caused. I hope that my actions in the future will show my commitment to change.
Thank you for taking the time to read my appeal and consider my request. No matter the decision, I appreciate the chance to take responsibility for my past and express my commitment to doing better.
- Capril
