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She is a samurai on the weekends @MinecraftJedi127
Just felt the need to post this, don't mind me.
I don't hate Zor. Doesn't mean we're the best of friends, but I don't hate him. I admire many things about him, and I can even sympathize with some of the decisions he's made. Plus he introduced me to my favorite band.
That said, I can never really like him, since there was a time when he severely limited the server's growth and poisoned it with the hostility and resentment we still deal with now. And, you know, he thinks I'm an idiot who's never had an original thought. Hard to get along with that.
Having had all these years to reflect, I've come to realize that what I've wanted wasn't to beat him, it was to get him to see me as an equal. I could have just left Central and joined up with the Alliance, it was made clear to me at one time that it was available to me as an option. But I chose, out of spite more than anything, to stick with the Computernites and outlast the bastards who were trying to drive us out. And that stubbornness has seen me through all these years of animosity, for better or worse. And a part of me always looked back on that choice with the tiniest twinge of regret, and I thought to myself, if I can't prove myself as his ally, I'll prove myself a worthy opponent. And I didn't, really. Too lazy and too clumsy to put up much of a fight.
And after all this time, I'm alright with that. I've come to accept it, and see it in a positive light. I've learned from the mistakes I've made, and had some good experiences. And I have other people, just as smart and capable as Zor, who see someone worthwhile when they look at this piggy avatar. And in many ways, that makes up for all the anxiety and pain of the last few years.
I don't hate Zor. Doesn't mean we're the best of friends, but I don't hate him. I admire many things about him, and I can even sympathize with some of the decisions he's made. Plus he introduced me to my favorite band.
That said, I can never really like him, since there was a time when he severely limited the server's growth and poisoned it with the hostility and resentment we still deal with now. And, you know, he thinks I'm an idiot who's never had an original thought. Hard to get along with that.
Having had all these years to reflect, I've come to realize that what I've wanted wasn't to beat him, it was to get him to see me as an equal. I could have just left Central and joined up with the Alliance, it was made clear to me at one time that it was available to me as an option. But I chose, out of spite more than anything, to stick with the Computernites and outlast the bastards who were trying to drive us out. And that stubbornness has seen me through all these years of animosity, for better or worse. And a part of me always looked back on that choice with the tiniest twinge of regret, and I thought to myself, if I can't prove myself as his ally, I'll prove myself a worthy opponent. And I didn't, really. Too lazy and too clumsy to put up much of a fight.
And after all this time, I'm alright with that. I've come to accept it, and see it in a positive light. I've learned from the mistakes I've made, and had some good experiences. And I have other people, just as smart and capable as Zor, who see someone worthwhile when they look at this piggy avatar. And in many ways, that makes up for all the anxiety and pain of the last few years.
An appropriate forum for this uncomfortable ranting of self-pity and enlightenment.
Great to see how supportive the Loka community is......
Saying awkward alert is because it happened out of no where. Who said I didn't support it?
I know we do. Its why Ravenna stands as a beacon to bring peace!
